TWO STORIES, ONE ENDING

Story One:

Many many years ago Glen and the girls went off to Brandon on a daddy/daughter tattoo adventure.  I’ve been told that this is a bit unusual; t’s normally the mom who shares a tattoo experience, but that’s not what happened in our family.

If memory serves me their plans had been in the works for a while.  I think they decided what they wanted and made the appointment during the girls’ Christmas break from University.  Their big adventure was scheduled for when they would be home again on their reading break.  I know it was still winter because the weather and the roads were not good that day but that wasn’t going to stop them.  They were on a mission to permanently alter their bodies.

I remember feeling a little sad and excluded.  It wasn’t the tattoo part I was interested in, but the fact that they went off to the city, ate out at a restaurant, and probably did a little shopping too, and leaving me out of it seemed like a heartless thing to do to dear old mom.  I guess a person only rated an invite if they were signing up for the whole deal and all I wanted was the fun part. 

They returned triumphant, full of stories about how much it did or didn’t hurt, how long it took, what it cost, and showing off their body art.  Mitchell must have been present for this celebratory home-coming too because he immediately piped up that if tattoos could be a daddy/daughter thing, then they most certainly could also be mother/son.  I guess both of us felt a little left out and his invitation was his way of balancing the scales.  I agreed to a tattoo date sometime in the future when we both had come up with something we wanted.

There is a lot to consider where tattoos are concerned.  Are you just going for art?  Are you wanting the name of someone you love this week?  Month?  Year?  Do you want color, or just black or dark blue?  Do you want it to be big, or tiny?  Do you want it where everyone can see it?  Or is it a private thing that you want the option to hide it with clothing or a hairstyle sometimes?  Do you want to be able to see it yourself, or put it on your back where you will never see it?  Do you want it to have special significance to you, or is your choice to just copy something you’ve admired on someone else?  Some people go for a two-halves-of-one-whole design where they each get half of a heart.  Done right a tattoo is a work of art, the possibilities are endless.

Being mindful of all these things I set out to pick the perfect thing for me.  I favored something smaller, a single image of something that held special significance to me.  I’m a writer so maybe a feather quill?  Feathers are also a symbol of a gift, I kind of liked that, but I could never find the right feather image.

I also like blue dragonflies.  Or, how about something patriotic like a maple leaf?

Eventually Mitchell gave up on me and started on his own.  He was going for a sleeve that would be a work-in-progress for a while.  I could join him anytime I wanted.  The thing was I just couldn’t find something I felt strongly enough about to want it permanently etched into my skin. 

Which brings me to …

Story Two:

Many many years ago, maybe even in the same time period as Story One, I decided to rearrange our bedroom furniture.  This never goes over well because Glen dislikes when I alter ‘his nest’ (his words).  The decision is never taken lightly and obviously I have to do it on my own.  Bedroom furniture is heavy and carpet does not make the job easier so to make it more manageable I remove all the drawers to lighten the load.  I have gone hunting a favorite pair of socks down the back of a chest of drawers, I know stuff falls behind there, and this time when I pulled out the last drawer I found a construction paper Mother’s Day card from Mitchell – I’m guessing circa grade 2.  Most of the paper is taken up by an origami paper flower but down in the right-hand corner, diligently printed in little boy letters and poignantly mis-spelled is the verse “Roses are red,  vilits are blue,  I wrote this pome,  just for you.”

I admit I keep silly things, but I had kept it once and I couldn’t bring myself to throw it away this time either.  It got filed away in my silly treasure stash.

This spring, as we adjusted to living with Mitchell gone, the topic of tattoos came up.  Jesse wanted one to keep his memory close and I added to my list of regrets the fact that we had never done our mother/son tattoo date.  I’m sure you can see where this is going.

It’s funny how all of my tattoo insecurities about what and where and when evaporated.  I knew I wanted his poem, in his own writing, on my fore arm where I could see it every day.  I wasn’t doing it to show it off to anyone else, I was doing it totally for me.  I was positive that this was what I wanted.  A very talented artist enhanced it with a colorful stem of johnny jump-up violets and added his signature to the bottom.  It’s a week old now, and I love it.

A person always wonders “What would he think?”  There is no telling, but it’s so easy to picture him standing in the doorway of our kitchen, leaning against the door jamb, his powerful arms crossed over that barrel chest of his, and him shaking his head as if to say “And that’s what you finally picked?”

I also believe that he would be touched by my choice.